look, if i can’t bear to watch the footage of ahmaud arbery being murdered, it’s not because i’ve chosen to “turn away.” if i can’t bring myself to repost another vector illustration of a black man with angel wings, it’s not because i do not stand against systemic racism. i’ve spent all morning trying to figure out what it means to not just crowdsource my grief, but everything else just comes off like i’m trying to make it about me, when i know it’s not. and if your response to all this is nobody asked you, i reply, isn’t what we ask of ourselves already too much?